Words Of a Feather

You will be gone soon

I will watch as I have to jump across the fence

Out of your sullen, dark field of misery

The brownish blades of grass too tired to keep standing

The clouds covering the sky without a silver lining

I must jump across the white, picket fence and catch a few splinters

For I will never see you again

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In retrospect, I did cherish it

This was our last year together and this year was one of the most memorable

We had almost every class together

We were so connected, so alike that we were the same person

But we are so different with moral, interests, and senses of humor and senses of self

I will never forget the after school activities, the post-midterms or finals hangouts

The field trips and the in-class jokes we had

The times we were by one another’s side

Even when I grow old, I will remember every last thing about you

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So the last day came

It was time for you to go, yet I was not done

I wanted another hug, another moment to cry, yet I was denied closure

We almost shed some tears, but the demon of comedy ruined the moment

We eventually left with words yet to come out of us

I let go of tears so salty they could kill me if I drank them all

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A new year without you would mean some time to prepare

We would eventually have to split up for college, but now we prepare ahead of time

We have three years to be apart and be ready for when we will not see one another every day

The grass on the other side is not as brown as before, but now, lime

The youngest, most immature shade of green

Encouraging us to grow into newer people before we take off

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A new year without you would mean a new year of self-worth

No longer would I feel so much smaller than you despite being so much taller

I would have infinite chances to show the world what I could be

No more being stuck in someone else’s shadow

I am finally the main character of my life again

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A new year without you would mean a new year of friendship

We would no longer have only each other as company

I would have to do the unthinkable: make friends

New friends would be made for both of us without feeling bad for the other

Even better, old friendships would still be tested

We’d trudge through the kingdom of isolation to stick together

Even if our dynamic may be different without you, we still have each other

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A new year without you would never be without you

You did not disappear or die or move away, you are still here

We can still see each other over the warm, humid days of the summer

We can still call or text one another until we’re driven crazy by our phones

We can still have sleepovers

We can still watch each other grow up and die together

We can still see our big performances and events

And with the power of our friendship necklaces, we will always be together

Even when we aren’t together

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Finally, I could step over the picket fence and appreciate the grass

The grass that may not be the same as before, but is still greener